" I am struggling with something that is controlling me under its power. It is very powerful, beyond my imagination, and I have never overcome once since the very beginning. I prayed a thousand of times; I have been trying my best to go away and get over it and still I am. In the end, it doesn't even matter because I believe in the future. One day ... one day, very soon, I am going to be a winner. It is the ghost inside of me. For some reason or another, I made it to act that way. For the same reason and in the same way, I will make it disappear." It inspires me. HSCHA.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

sampai hati....

"i don't know there something happen 2 me,..I'AM SORRY WHAT I HAVE DONE WITH U B4 u back there..now i just think wanna stop everything..i really mean it.."..please jgn sms saya lg.."

hurmmn..ayat ni buat aku btl2 sakit hati..nak buat ni salah..nak buat tu pn salah..sms pn salah apalgi nak kol..
sabar ja la..kerana sayang aku ikutkn ja kata2nya..aku takkan sms dia lg..mungkin dia mmg suka mcm tu..tak mau diganggu..ya la..

tapi aku ada 1 ayat ja untuk dia..."every single lifetime, i'll choose u. just as u have always chosen me.FOREVER!.."
bukan kerana cinta semata-mata..tapi lebih daripada itu..cuma dia tak cuba utk mahu membahagiakan hati sendiri..dia menafikan apa yg ada dalam hatinya..dia mungkin tak faham mengapa 1 ketika aku memegang tangan dan mengelus jari jemarinya..aku merasakan aliran darah dari sarafnya..dan ia sama dgn apa yg aku rasakan ketika itu..dan dia mungkin belum sedar..aku dan dia mpunyai persamaan..firasat aku mmg betul..cuma masih ada beberapa perkara aku tak faham..dan perkara itulah yg aku harus selesaikan sekarang..aku tau buat masa ni dia belum bersedia berkongsi apa2pn dgn aku..aku rela..tapi dia harus tahu sesuatu..aku diam bukan bermaksud aku tak buat apa2..

dan 1 lg..rasanya aku harus meminta maaf dgn kwn2 semua..sesiapa sahaja yg terbaca entri ni..bahawasanya fb akaun aku dah hacked pagi td..dan sedang usahakan untuk selesaikan mslh tsb..payah betul berunding dgn hackers ni..terpaksa la tak main fb buat sementara..harap maklum..

k la..mood tak berapa ok ni..jumpa lagi ya..bye..

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