Emo..emo?..

..........this song remind me to someone I love so, and I know that she loves me too. we've been together for few years! but, she can't give me assurance to keep stay with him..but why???..she ever told me and what she said it is same with this song lyric...emmm..whatever..

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
 It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't
Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change [4x]

And...
..she is my lover and she is always so funky and alive to me. but the pain there seemed very real and touchy and almost brought tears to mine eyes.

i know i'm late but the feeling still fresh and hit me hard!!!
then...
..To me this was about my illness. I was sick for few years until now and more things kept on going wrong when something got better. and i wanted to believe I'd get better but i have to try again..again and again..never give up!..my depression sunk in and i went all numb. I had no idea what i was feeling and i had no idea what to say to my psychs..
And also...
..it was up to me whether i died. It was up to me when i said i needed help. And i had a little time and my sickness would leave me alone it might not be too late. But it was.i have to staying strong!!
...Nobody can stop me to fight for this love..never...everyday i fell in love with him and it  was very painful..i don't know why but i like this feeling...because i know,these feeling is not made in pretend..but it's born from my heart...
though im not yet really ready of losing him,i try to cover up the pain which is i know i can't really hide..
and now...
I have ready to fight the things weren't better. so maybe it would be tomorrow. But i still believe him..i will be...

~H.S.C.H.A~